All Forward Motion Counts

the kind of thing that would only happen at my moms

So I get the idea, hey i want chocolate. I go downstairs to ask my mom and on my way I see a bag of what looks to be oatmeal chocolate cookies. I think “Perfect!” I stuff one down the hatch and realized mid way through how gritty and dry they were. No sooner than ten minutes after, i find out - they are packed with weed. now i’m crunk, while everyone but me plays rockband haha.

paths

so i’m sitting down reflecting on where i’ve been , and how much fun i’ve had in my life time thus far. I’m so truly blessed to have known the people i’ve known,and to say the least those who arent in my life on an every-day basis anymore I do miss quite frequently and know that the impact made is not underdone. Still exists through and through. There have been times of downright shitty rough patches but generally life just seems to get me through it, and looking back it all just seems like a part of the path, something i had to do to get here. and i wouldn’t have it any other way. The relationships that i have with people that are broken, well, its unfortunate but know that its like that for a reason, if we held on too long we’d never go down our seperate paths, and down the road we’d miss out on a lot of things that should have happend. I can’t for one moment regret any time i’ve ever spent doing anything at all. Because where I am now, where I may not have everything and everyone that I want in one place, its stilll okay. because generally life keeps moving forward and positive moments reassure me that its all just a part of the path. Learning that when things don’t work out means that their not supposed to was a tough one to swollow. learning when to go with the flow and when to swim against the current is also another one. Learning to put yourself first was the hardest and took a solid nine months of reflection and focus to get me through. I struggle with my enevitability to try and be the glue, or sometimes guiltily, the hero, and even though thats not how I want to be its who I am. All I know is that I am the embellicier of my own life. I can make it extraordinary or ordinary as I see fit. Lately, I want to dive both feet into bottomless puddles just to see what happens, because for the first time in my whole life I’m not afraid. If I move to fast or too slow I don’t have to take the consideration as to what or who i’ll lose. My pace on my own time. And with that I care for the people I love all the more, ironically. Being selfish makes me a better person and in turn a better friend. This week I’m jetting off to montreal. I’ve always have wanted to go. Then I’m going straight to Toronto for some family quality time. This will all happen unexpectedly in the next few days. So I really want to squish as much time in between now and then with my dad and my friends. So hey, if you havent seen me in a while, give me a call. I probably miss you. Because lets face it. Everyone I’ve really gotten to know i do miss- though I understand our paths are different it never hurts to reconnect and catch up over coffee. thats kind of the topping on the preverbial pizza of life, making friends, connections, leaving them to do their thing and then seeing whats happened in that time and just living vicariously.

anyway, things are really good lately and i’m happy. all forward motion counts!