Uneasy thoughts, and sick feelings.

I feel so strange. Like I’m not actually here. It’s as if part of me is in a dream, while the other part is on auto pilot. Maybe it’s because I’ve got too much time on my hands. That could very well be it. I’ve also been thinking about B- a lot, and I get this sick feeling in my stomach. I’m hoping it’s only due to the “lonely holiday” effect, because if it isn’t, we’ve got a huge problem. I mean, I’ve got the closure I wanted, in a way, so there really isn’t a need for me to be feeling the way I do. Unless…I let him in farther than I realized. I need water now. Goodnight, And happy Holidays.

People

We’ve all had that one person that to this day, for some reason, we still want. I get this, believe me I do. I’ve loved and lost and regretted and fretted over and cried about. But if you think about it, reeeeeally think about it, there’s a reason that they aren’t in our lives. Either we didn’t deserve them or they didn’t deserve us. (You can argue this if you think I’m wrong) It hurts like a slit thumb pushed into alcohol, but also like the alcohol soaked thumb, it cleanses us. By being sad about it, you never get that chance to move on. Maybe the other person is feeling the same way, or like my ex, they’ve moved onto someone who isn’t and won’t ever be you and they are having the time of the lives.Either way you look at it, you’re alone, but it’s not a bad thing. You weren’t born attached to anyone (except your mother) and therefore you should not base your happiness on anyone. It’s taken me a damn long time to realize this, but now that I have I feel like I can go on and party all I want.

So if you’re wasting your time crying over someone, or anything like that you really need to stop. You are allowed maybe one week in total of mourning, but that’s it. If it didn’t work out, that’s all there is to it. These words may sound harsh, but sometimes we need to hear them. Get over it. Move on, burn the bridge, do whatever it takes to stop the tears. Fate has someone for everyone, and if it’s not who you want at this moment too bad. Something better is coming. You’ve just got to wait. So get off of Tumblr and start living your life.

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