December 2011
14 posts
Uneasy thoughts, and sick feelings.
I feel so strange. Like I’m not actually here.
It’s as if part of me is in a dream, while the other part is on auto pilot. Maybe it’s because I’ve got too much time on my hands. That could very well be it. I’ve also been thinking about B- a lot, and I get this sick feeling in my stomach. I’m hoping it’s only due to the “lonely holiday” effect,...
People
We’ve all had that one person that to this day, for some reason, we still want. I get this, believe me I do. I’ve loved and lost and regretted and fretted over and cried about. But if you think about it, reeeeeally think about it, there’s a reason that they aren’t in our lives. Either we didn’t deserve them or they didn’t deserve us. (You can argue this if you...
November 2011
17 posts
Not Goodbye. Not yet.
Life has a way of showing you the light through pain. It has a way of making sense, even if it hurts at first. I don’t think that it’s the end of us, just an intermission. You need to get yourself stable, and so do I. I hope that sometime later on tonight that our paths will cross again. I won’t wait forever, but I’ll leave directions so that you can always find me, if you...
Clocks and Questions.
My decisions are no longer based on what I want, but rather on the time. For example, if I ask myself “am I the reason for this issue?” and the last digit to the right is an even number, then the answer is yes. Naturally, I freak. I know it’s not a logical way of thinking, and I really need to stop. I ask these questions and get answers I don’t want, and then BAM. Kristine...
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I never thought I’d be one of those girls who would consider staying in her hometown for University, just for a guy. I mean, that isn’t the entire reason, but it is a big one. I’ve got a scholarship to a school that will allow me to get my master’s in three years, but I don’t feel like that school would be right for me. I could stay and get my degree here, but in my...
My man
I’ve got a man.
And I absolutely adore him
To -------
When I was 15
There was a boy who came and swept me away
Not too long after he dropped me right on my head
Leaving my heart in a coma
For years I walked around
With my heart on life support
Until you came along and did something I myself had lost faith it
You made my heart breathe on its own again
And now you’ve gone and transformed it into something more
It’s not even a heart that was sore
It’s...
October 2011
5 posts
Fuck. Me.
September 2011
7 posts
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August 2011
3 posts
I never thought that I could love again.
Not that I’m in love.
But I’m falling, spiriling,
and he couldn’t be a better person.
I’m not afraid anymore.
Going to school on your period
The Inside:
The Outside:
“MY LIFE SUCKS. NEED CHOCOLATE”
“WHY THE FUCK DID MOM NOT GET ME CHOCOLATE?”
“I’M GOING TO FUCKING KILL EVERYONE”
And all the boys stare at you like:
But all the girls are like:
“I feel your pain”
Yellow Bird.
I don’t want this to go wrong. Please, Lord. Let this go well, because I really like him. He makes me want to smile again, and when I’m with him, I’m not afraid to meet him eye to eye. Maybe I’m asking for too much, but I can still hope, and I can still pray.
Maybe he’s not my yellow bird just yet, but he is the sweet song I’ve been waiting for.
July 2011
2 posts
I know
I know that I don’t pray much,
But Lord, please.
Get me through these tough times.
Help me see a reason to wake up every morning
and help me find a reason and will to love.
-Kristine
June 2011
3 posts
Monty?
Where are you?
